i woke up fine but i was all sweaty.
day starts as regular i was kinda feeling slightly weak and my toes of right legs usually bends so i know that in my system there is some thing wrong or changing i guess it was changing my old habits in to a new one.like wise my whole life is changing the place i used to stay is changed, the food that i used to have has changed, the people i hangout have changed, so it was a new beginning as i have said previously also. and after morning i just sat infron of laptop and watched youtube and all which is i guess of no use because it didnt work out for me and i dont know what will work out for me. after having lunch paru(my sister) went to talk with dad about kalinchowk trip. it took her 2 hours to convince him to lets us go. then when he was convenced we called anjan so that to take out the money from moneygram which bijay dai(big brother who is in USA). brother had send for our trip. so he headed to bharatpur home (anjan's home) and we picked up anjan and anjana headed out to to take money we went to globle ime bank and we took out money and went for anjana and paru shoping after there shoping we went to gave us a reward and we to have momo and coffee in royal coffee shop and we planed for 1hr or so the we went to talk to our father's sister and her husband to ask permision for surey. so we talked for hr or so and we returned back to home then sushant called me and i had to return trigger to him so i took the trigger and went to meet them had a business talk i mean what we should be doing next and after that i returned home had a dinner watch movies and bed time stories started in my dreams.
its 27 january and there is nothing much to say because my life is getting boring and i am getting more and more frustrated by this shits going on so i am trying to take my chances and start new things. so in morning i felt like today i have to talk to anish so i calledd him its been long because of my matter about studies and family tour and travels so we meetup and he had a new song and it was his best till now and i will be his manager so lets see what will happen and then as ussual i came home and had lunch and sat infron of laptop watching god knows what and at night i thought of beeing a monk. i have told to myself that one the engineering is over i have to become monk for 3 years to master the mind and so i can learn the secrets of mind and monk were the best teacher but as i was raised in hindu family i have to fight with whole of my society and family. to be frank for 11 years i was in christain school so i belive in christainity so after that i was hindu for next 9 years and now i want to be buddist for 3 years so i told my sister about being budist but she did over reacted and so i needed to talk with someone who wont react so i chose my ex who is in austrila and she was the girls who i really hurt and i am very sorry for that i was just a gerk and i was in my teenage and i fucked her up emotionally but karma is a bitch and after that i was fucked emotionally by my ex haha so earth is surly round what goes comes around. so lets continue i talk with her about being monk but she was like i dont care your choice and after that conversation i told her that she needs to forgive me and her reply were just wow she told me "now she dont hate me but she is also not sure weather she had forgiven me or not."
and i talk to dhurba and anjan vai about being monk. and ya i forget as i thought about being monk and wanted to smoke so i went to a shop and while i was smoking and thinking about being monk in a background out of now where the budist song started to play so i just felt like it was the sign from the univers so i have to figure out how can i go to become monk for 3 -5 years. lets see if i can make it happen.
day starts as regular i was kinda feeling slightly weak and my toes of right legs usually bends so i know that in my system there is some thing wrong or changing i guess it was changing my old habits in to a new one.like wise my whole life is changing the place i used to stay is changed, the food that i used to have has changed, the people i hangout have changed, so it was a new beginning as i have said previously also. and after morning i just sat infron of laptop and watched youtube and all which is i guess of no use because it didnt work out for me and i dont know what will work out for me. after having lunch paru(my sister) went to talk with dad about kalinchowk trip. it took her 2 hours to convince him to lets us go. then when he was convenced we called anjan so that to take out the money from moneygram which bijay dai(big brother who is in USA). brother had send for our trip. so he headed to bharatpur home (anjan's home) and we picked up anjan and anjana headed out to to take money we went to globle ime bank and we took out money and went for anjana and paru shoping after there shoping we went to gave us a reward and we to have momo and coffee in royal coffee shop and we planed for 1hr or so the we went to talk to our father's sister and her husband to ask permision for surey. so we talked for hr or so and we returned back to home then sushant called me and i had to return trigger to him so i took the trigger and went to meet them had a business talk i mean what we should be doing next and after that i returned home had a dinner watch movies and bed time stories started in my dreams.
its 27 january and there is nothing much to say because my life is getting boring and i am getting more and more frustrated by this shits going on so i am trying to take my chances and start new things. so in morning i felt like today i have to talk to anish so i calledd him its been long because of my matter about studies and family tour and travels so we meetup and he had a new song and it was his best till now and i will be his manager so lets see what will happen and then as ussual i came home and had lunch and sat infron of laptop watching god knows what and at night i thought of beeing a monk. i have told to myself that one the engineering is over i have to become monk for 3 years to master the mind and so i can learn the secrets of mind and monk were the best teacher but as i was raised in hindu family i have to fight with whole of my society and family. to be frank for 11 years i was in christain school so i belive in christainity so after that i was hindu for next 9 years and now i want to be buddist for 3 years so i told my sister about being budist but she did over reacted and so i needed to talk with someone who wont react so i chose my ex who is in austrila and she was the girls who i really hurt and i am very sorry for that i was just a gerk and i was in my teenage and i fucked her up emotionally but karma is a bitch and after that i was fucked emotionally by my ex haha so earth is surly round what goes comes around. so lets continue i talk with her about being monk but she was like i dont care your choice and after that conversation i told her that she needs to forgive me and her reply were just wow she told me "now she dont hate me but she is also not sure weather she had forgiven me or not."
and i talk to dhurba and anjan vai about being monk. and ya i forget as i thought about being monk and wanted to smoke so i went to a shop and while i was smoking and thinking about being monk in a background out of now where the budist song started to play so i just felt like it was the sign from the univers so i have to figure out how can i go to become monk for 3 -5 years. lets see if i can make it happen.
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